Overthinking is a disease.

Hello, my name's Melina and I'm an over-thinker (hi Melina!). No, but seriously, overthinking is terrible. If you didn't know already, I was diagnosed with GAD a few years ago. I've learned to manage it much better than in the past, but it still gets to me in during certain scenarios.

On top of the fact that I have terrible anxiety, I am an over thinker. Or does my anxiety cause overthinking? I'm pretty sure that they feed off of each other. I don't even know, all I know is that it's a terrible combination.

It stops me from sleeping, I can't concentrate, it causes headaches, and makes me doubt and question every single little thing.

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I could text a close friend of mine, and if the tone of the text changes, the little voices in my head start it up. "she's mad at you". "she's annoyed at you". "she doesn't want to be your friend". "stop annoying her". "oh, you're such a bother". Like if I sit down and really think about it, the chances that any of those things are true is slim, but at that moment in time, it feels true.

I will feel sick to my stomach with worry. Negative thoughts will consume me. I will feel  like I am losing my friend, even before anything actually happened....and then she texts. Oh, she was just at work.

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Now I just feel silly for even having any of those thoughts pass through my head in the first place. Now this situation doesn't happen with close friends anymore, thank god.

It's frustrating knowing that my mind is probably my greatest enemy. Some people will never understand that no matter how stable the relationship/friendship is, when you're in that specific mindset it's beyond difficult to believe otherwise.

To be fair, I've had these thoughts about all of my relationships/friendships, with the exception of two...maybe? I don't know what made those people special. For whatever reason, my mind has never caused me to believe that those people were ever going to leave me, and I'm grateful for that.

The list has actually increased throughout the years. I can stand before you and give you a good six names or so with complete certainty that I do not and will not question. For the rest of you in my life, thanks for sticking around.

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While the examples I have given you have mainly pertained to my relationships with the people in my life, overthinking consumes almost every aspect of my everyday life. I mainly used those examples because they have been more relevant recently.

I'm working on getting better, and like I mentioned before, there are more people I fully trust than I used to. I'm still working on it! It's way easier said than done. Someone who doesn't suffer from mental health issues will never understand.  I could explain for hours the irrational thoughts that cross my mind, and you will never fully comprehend how having these thoughts actually feel. It's a constant battle.

Do any of you guys suffer from anxiety or overthinking in any way? Thank you so much for reading. Have a wonderful day/night. Sending you love, strength and postivity.

-Melina xx

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19 comments

  • georginawangui says:

    I completely relate with this post... I overthink to the point my head hurts and can't do anything else, not even sleep!

    But it is getting better..

    Thank you

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    • Melina Elisa says:

      I'm glad to hear that it's been getting better for you! I definitely go back and forth with getting my head around overthinking and having it in control. Thanks for reading and commenting 🙂 xx

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  • Jadirah Sarmad says:

    Girl, I feel ya! It's gets really toxic to makeup scenarios in head and then get upset or anxious. ;( (((Hugs))) I'll always be around.

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    • Melina Elisa says:

      I know it's honestly so terrible, but it does get better with practice most of the time. Thank you so much love! Love you xxx

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  • Marie says:

    Thank you so, so much for writing this post and sharing this with us, Melina. To be completely honest with you, I feel 300% seen right now, just reading this post, so thank you so, so much for that. This was so relatable and I'm so glad I'm not the only one feeling this way - your part about texting someone, that's EXACTLY what I do as well. It gets really frustrating, at times.
    Thank you so, so much for sharing this <3 <3

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    • Melina Elisa says:

      I'm so glad so many of you can relate to this! I'm constantly worrying that I'm a bother or a worry, and I doubt every single word that comes out of my mouth. It's extremely frustrating, and it's nice knowing that there are other people who feel the same! Thanks for reading and commenting Marie 🙂 x

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      • Marie says:

        You're so welcome - it's good to know I'm not alone. Thank you for always writing these amazing posts <3 <3

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  • The Style of Laura Jane says:

    One of my favourite posts of yours, because I can relate so easily! My mind is my best friend and my worst enemy. I suffer with anxiety, and I over-analyse till the point I am always up in the AM. I can tend to think the worst in situations. I even worry when I type, how I come across. It's one of those things, where the older I've got, it's helped. But sometimes I think it will never truly go away. xx

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    • Melina Elisa says:

      I'm glad you can relate. I feel like we fear the unknown, and to some extent, that's where our overthinking comes from. The fact that anxiety is also a factor doesn't help much. Like you said, as I've gotten older, it's helped loads, but it's a part of us we have to deal with. Thanks so much for reading and commenting Laura xx

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  • emilyryann says:

    I definitely think overthinking is the result of fear and anxiety. It’s important to confront your worries head on and trust in God

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    • emilyryann says:

      and let him hold you during your trials.💗☺️ — https://emilyryannblogblog.wordpress.com/

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      • Melina Elisa says:

        Omg, that's really good advice, and you're probably right. Fear and anxiety mixed together is what probably causes overthinking. I never thought about that. While I knew that my anxiety definitely added to it, I never thought about fear. It makes perfect sense though. Thanks for reading and commenting 🙂 x

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  • justmyselfa says:

    This post is one hundred percent relatable! Especially because I have been diagnosed with GAD. Everyday is hard but we get through it ! Thank you so much for this great post love

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    • Melina Elisa says:

      I'm glad you found that you can relate! It's extremely frustrating, but we're getting stronger every day and conquering our own minds. Thanks for reading and comment 🙂 x

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  • Jade J says:

    I worry about everyone whether I personally know you or not and overthink about everything whether it concerns me or not. GAD can be frustrating... This post is relatable, great read xo

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    • Melina Elisa says:

      this comment literally equates to me, my post, and my life. Like sometimes it's so hard to put into words how I feel, and so I keep rambling and writing until I feel like I explained it as good as I possibly could. I'm glad you enjoyed reading this! Thank you so much for commenting! comments like these literally make my day 🙂 x

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      • Jade J says:

        I always feel better when I learn of new people going through the same thing as me. Doesn't matter how you put as long as the message is out you get to inspire people.

        No worries, pleasure was all mine xo

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