Gratitude in October | 2020

Hey, so I took a bit of a break. I honestly wasn’t expecting it. I was keeping a steady stream of productivity, even while struggling with extreme anxiety and other things going on in my life.

Then election week came, and I reached a peak of anxiety, that I honestly could not do anything. I’m telling you, I did absolutely nothing productive. I was just struck with so much crippling anxiety and stress, it was honestly all I could think about. It was a sleepless week for sure.

But now, I’m trying to come back from all of those intense feelings. It’s funny, cause even though I was beyond relieved and happy when Joe Biden was elected president, and my anxiety definitely decreased, I still wasn’t feeling 100%.

Instead of being hard on myself, I decided to be extremely forgiving and allow myself to ease back into my blogging/Youtube schedule. So, here I am! Not feeling completely myself at the moment, but missing talking to all of you. Let’s get into last month!

Bachelorette started!

One thing that started last month that I was looking forward to was the Bachlorette started! There's just something so comforting about watching a reality tv show. It honestly just takes you away from reality.

My best friend, Jamie, has been coming over almost every week, and it's been so nice having her over as we make fun of each of the episodes. Neither of us have been a big fan of Claire, and we're beyond happy that Tayshia is now the bachelorette.

To be fair, the producers did a horrible job of making Claire look good. I feel like they did her so dirty in editing. While she did give them a lot of sound bites to work with, they definitely could have made her come across as a lot more likable!

Nonetheless, I've been enjoying the season, and am looking forward to see how the rest of it goes with Tayshia!

Haunted House

While I didn't get to do that much to celebrate Halloween, I did one activity! I went to a haunted house with my quarantine crew! I was a little anxious, because I didn't know how safe the whole thing was going to be. I was more than a little relieved, when I saw that they took so many precautions to make sure everyone was safe, while also having fun!

While the haunted house wasn't as good as it was in past years (they didn't have as many actors, because of covid), but it was still nice to something that felt a little bit normal.

Dungeons and Dragons

As always, Dungeons and Dragons is a highlight to my month. We're getting close to finishing our first campaign, and we're already talking about what adventure we're going to do next, so I'm definitely looking forward to our next get together!

Best Friend’s Birthday

During the month of October, it was my best friend's, Jill, birthday. With covid happening, and me not feeling comfortable eating indoors, I decided to make a little dessert platter at my house! We drank some wine in our onesies, ate tons of desserts, and watched a whole bunch of shitty Christmas movies. She loves Hallmark/Lifetime movies, so that's exactly what we watched. 3 movies to be exact.

Halloween

While I normally celebrate Halloween multiple nights, with everything going on, it just wasn't realistic. This year I had a little get together at my house with my quarantine crew! It was a lot smaller that the parties I normally have, but I had a good time. I was poison Ivy for Halloween this year, which I had a lot of fun doing the makeup for!

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October was pretty difficult for me in terms of where my anxiety was at, but it's nice to look back on the month and see the positives that happened. Now, tell me how your month was? As always, thank you for reading. I hope you have a wonderful day/night. Sending you love, strength, and positivity xx